After the broadcasting of Joyous Voice of Boys, every day I had been receiving several contracts by fax at home and all of these contracts were to be settled by cash.

　　I had counted one by one, with the contract from Shandong, I could settle the bill for the museum’s transformers; with the contract from Shanghai, I could decorate the museum with green plants; with the contract from Guangzhou, I could replace all the sewers with the new ones. By the end of the year, I would then pack up and say goodbye to the showbiz (so-called entertainment circles) and go back to my hometown.

　　However, my wonderful dreams were snatched away. News came that I was forced out (“Feng Sha” in Chinese). The first time I heard this word “Feng Sha”, I did not even understand what does it means. My intuition made me uneasy. Both the words, “Feng”, (means close up or seal up) and “Sha” (means kill), gave an opinion of bad luck.

　　Nevertheless, “Feng Sha” was truly effective. All of a sudden, my surrounding became quiet and calm at once. The phone turned soundless suddenly. All the contacts were then turned to be trash paper. There gone the transformers, the new sewers, and the plan to have more green plants. The poor museum was still eagerly waiting for financing. All these were ruined out because I was forced-out. I was so confused and shocked. I was speechless.

　　 Prior to this, when I walked along the streets, I lived in the life style of so-called “five-star gypsy”. After return to my country, I worked with a team for the first time of my life and then I was forced out. My great enthusiasm met with heartedly chill. I knew it was unfair but nothing can be done.

　　At the moment, I walked quietly to the family hall for worshiped Buddha, burnt three trunks of incense, sitting silent in front of the window, watching my own shadow reflected from the window glass, I felt myself as a complete stranger. I was not even sure whether that was the lady who had created such records in 2007 Chinese entertainment shows:

　　“Entertainment Godmother”;

　　“God of Red Flower”;

　　“Chinese Entertainment Topic Queen of 2007”;

　　“The Most Outstanding Judge Champion In History”;

　　“Female Judge with tens of thousands of supporters and with tens of thousands of resentment”;

　　“Champion of Irony Judge”;

　　“Champion of Nasty Judge”;

　　“Model of Real Woman of Individuality”;

　　“Significant Personality in Asia”;

　　“Queen of Entertainment TV Reality Show”;

　　“Woman Blossom Out in Scold”.

　　I, who dipped into the entertainment circle and then couldn’t find a true myself, submerged by all kinds of criticisms flied to me, at last, realized at last that I really evolved in the world of entertainment circle.

　　During this period, I went through all kinds of mess, all were pushed in front of my eyes and around my ears.　

　　A feeling of admiration of those stars who have their photos on magazine covers rose suddenly. I also came to realize that all the players of the entertainment circle are evolved ones. I understood then why the three characters’ name of Liu De Hua (Andy Liu) could last for thirsty years and was still there, why Xue You Zhang (Jacky Cheung) was watertight. One call from Chu Sheng Chen, made me loss a great kickback. Any small accident will cause distinction of a creature under the hype of the media today. Only those warriors with the spirit of invulnerability can sing at the top of their voices through the battle.